A Lil' Update...

It’s been brought to my attention that my blog is lacking capacity(SERIOUSLY, wtf), and has been for some time now(ok so I’m behind two years), my bad. Reading back, I couldn’t believe was in utter shock at some of the stuff I wrote. What the hell was I thinking?

Thankfully Sadly, I’m getting divorced. It’s been a long time coming, and it was bound to happen. I kept lying to telling myself, it would be all ok, day in and day out, in order to just to make it through the day. Should I stay because it was convenient or because of the money situation, should I stay because of my schooling, and try to make it through the next the next semester dealing with this continued bullshit loveliness. Some days would be ok, others I just wanted to scream. And then it got worse. The end thank God!!!!

Anyway, paperwork should be filed next week and depending on the courts.... a month or two til I’m a free happy lonely single woman. Like the saying goes, “Strength shows, not only in the ability to persist, but the ability to start over.” Here’s to stressing/freaking out over every damn little thing, trying to figure out my new life starting over!!!

Caylee is taking the news surprising well and even likes the new bitch woman in douche bags Darek’s life.

Speaking of Caylee, she’s the love of my life, and I don't know where I’d be without her. Her little sassy bratty spunky attitude definitely keeps me on my toes and reminds me whats really important in this life. She recently turned 8 going on 15, and she thinks she’s running the show. We had a scare with her a couple weeks back and having a high c-reactive protein count, come to find out just a bruised growth plate in her hip, thank God thats all it was. I love her more then anything. She’s in the 2nd grade at an awesome new charter school, and excelling in ever subject. We enjoy doing lots of things together like getting our nails done, shopping, coloring, singing loud as hell in the truck to stupid songs, etc. She’s my everything.

Caylee at her birthday party at Chucke Cheese!

Sometimes I wonder what pushes people to do the things they do, and react the way they do to the bull shit craziness going on in their life. One of my dear friends recently decided that the craziness of this world and what it had to offer wasn’t enough for him to wanna stay, and he took his own life. I think of all the things I could have/should have done or said, and it leaves me wondering if it would have mattered regardless. I miss him so much, he was there for me whenever I needed him, I wish I could have been there for him, more!!!! I hope and pray to God everyday that he’s in a better place, because thats what he deserves and needs. I can’t imagine living life, hating it so much that I could longer choose to stay.

Shawn and I a week before his death, I love and miss you buddy!

To cope with the stress, I’ve started pushing myself over my physical limits working out again. I’m trying to learn to love it again, and I know its going to be a lot of work, but its whats gonna keep me off the pills sane. I always love the feeling after an intense workout!!!!

Thankfully, some wonderful people have come into my life (sister included) and I don’t know what I would do with out them. They are helping me through this very emotional time in my life and making everyday worth remembering sometimes theres no remembering ha ha. I cherish those times with them and hope that they know they mean the world to me, you know who you are.

Erica and I enjoying ourselves with a night out!

Hopefully I can find time in my mildly boring busy life to blog more.

Ketchum...

Darek, Caylee, Doris(Darek's Grandma), Joyce(Darek's Mom) and I all went up to the Ketchum/Bellevue/Hailey(where Darek has been working for the last 7 months) area for a week to Doris's condo. We had a great time. Darek got up and went to work each day, and us girls went site seeing in Sun Valley, junkin, and shopping. I love the area. Most of the nights were cold and we were consumed by the heat of the hot tub and I'm sure we are all fried inside due to the hours we spent soaking the chlorine up!!! It was great, and I highly recommend spending a week up there if you can! Below are some pictures of our visit: Enjoy:


This is KK riding the wild hog statue at the farmer's market/art market they had going on!!!

We met up with Joyce's couson Delmer, that resides in right outside Hailey, with his wife Charlene, and their 13 year old daughter Lisa. We had a wonderful time visiting and Caylee had an even better time with Lisa in the hot tub! Two peas in a pod, they were unseperable.

We met up with Darek on day during his lunch break and Caylee automatically was attracted to this dinosaur right outside Subway, she actually wanted her picture taken!

Just a little update, blah blah blah, ramblings of Tiff....

Darek, Caylee and I have been super busy this summer just having a blast!!! Its official, we are both unemployed(laid off :)) and loving it. We spend our days together, waking up around ten, remodeling, boating, going out and so one.... Caylee even told one of our friends that "he should get fired, cause its so much fun!!!" Speaking of Caylee, shes so cute, and getting so big, she starts school on the 31, but long story short(read on for the long version), we are moving again, so which school is now undecided!!! She hates having someone other then herself take her picture so getting her to pose was hard, that stinker....


So here's one of her self portraits, I found it on my camera one day while I was going through deleting pics... I couldn't help but post it!!!



And another....

That's our little KK....

Explanation: She loves the kiss pose and peace, but to explain why she is cross eyed... she has Dwayne Syndrome (AKA no muscle on the left part of her left eye causing her right eye to over compensate for the lack of movement from her left). She now thinks its funny, and crosses her eyes all the time to show off, but the doc says let her do it, its only making any muscles she does have strong!

Like every summer, we've been out on the boat often, we love the summer heat. This year our outing mostly consist of lucky peak, with awesome friends and family.

One weekend we took out Flo and her kids Casey and Van, and Ashley, Casey's friend, they loved the tubes!!! Good times, good friends what else could you ask for!!!! Here's them in action!!!

Here's one of Florie and I, we had a blast!!!

Some other exciting news.... Caylee lost her first tooth, boy was she excited. Here's a pic of her showing in loose, 2 days later it was gone!!!

We have also had the privileged to visit Darek's Half brothers family. Jackson and Caylee are the same age, and Oakley is 2.5. This was the first time I met the little guy, and boy is he a cutie, they both are!

Recently due to the wonderful weather, Darek has convinced me to take up fishing, although my lack of catching anything is causing some frustration, but hey, it is relaxin. Here's a picture of Caylee and a fish she reeled in, she was so excited!!!

Now on to a frustrating part of my life, moving.... we've moved more then 5 times in the last 5 years, and we have found a place we love and live in, a landlord we love, but neighbors we can't stand!!! We have two small dog, and yes, one is a barker (cut us some slack she is a min pin and min pins are yappy). So our neighbors all have 3+ dogs and yes all of them bark. But for some reason, when we go out of town and someone dog watches for us, our neighbors, or one in particular feels the need to call animal control and this time she wrote us an actual misdemeanor citation for my dog being a bother barking at her. Never once has she called when we are home! These old women come over and leave cheap ass dog food in my yard because they think my dogs are too skinny (hello look up a picture of a health dog, and you wont find one as fat as hers), this pisses me off cause the crap gives my dogs the Hershey squirts that i have to clean up after. So after investigating some what, I've come to find out that my dogs aren't outrageous barks, and they only bark when the neighbors hold convenient meeting in front of my house!!! HELLO does anyone see something wrong with this picture? So now we have to go to court and fight this so its not on our record, and guess what, the neighbor has to go to court also, ha ha ha she never saw that coming! She thought we would get a fine, come to find out the judge decides that, and she's (the neighbor) mad!!!! All i have to say is "you get what you give"!!!!

Another aspect of my life that's causing some stress is my former employer!!!! I got a call on Thursday, stating that they want me back temporarily. IF i say no... i could lose my unemployment, if i say yes... more money then before!!! but less time for my family and myself!!! And this job totally stresses me out!!! We'll see how it all pans out... everything happens for a reason, right?

For the most part to sum my life up... "God is great, beer is good, and people are crazy"...

I've come to realize.....

I got this from one of my friends myspace blogs and thought that I would give it a try... thanx Lacey!!!!

I've come to realize that prescription drugs really work if somethings really indeed is wrong.
I've come to realize that working out makes me feel like a much better person, mental physically... basically in all ways.
I've come to realize I let little things annoy me that shouldn't.
I've come to realize that going back to school is going to be one of the best choices I could make right now.
I've come to realize that not matter how old you are, you can still have fun.
I've come to realize that my daughter is my everything, even though she can make me so mad.
I've come to realize that certain people can not be trusted.
I've come to realize that I have a problem with putting my phone on silent and losing it.
I've come to realize that I don't care what others think!
I've come to realize that I am NOT a morning person.
I've come to realize that I'm Obsessive Compulsive.
I've come to realize that my best friends are my husband and my twin sister.
I've come to realize that my husband does way more for me then I give him credit for.
I've come to realize that money isn't everything and doesn't create happiness, but dang it, it sure does help!!!
I've come to realize that reading relaxes and calms me down.
I've come to realize if someone is a true friend, then they'll be there for you no matter what.
I've come to realize that true friends do not complicate my life, and vice versa.
I've come to realize that spending time on me, makes me more happy.
I've come to realize its not what you wear, but how you wear it.
I've come to realize that my family is great.
I've come to realize and accept that I lack self control, and am consciously working on it!
I've come to realize if I don't speak up, nothing will ever change.
I've come to realize that people need there personal space and time.
I've come to realize that working solely to make money is not worth the time and effort to be miserable.
I've come to realize that life is too short to be unhappy.

Fun at Lucky Peak...

A couple of weeks ago, Darek and I decided to go get the boat, clean it up, and make some improvements. We added a stereo, speakers, a new horn, summarized it, cleaned and wax it. Saturday, it was way hot (in the 90's) and we couldn't bare it any longer, we had to get up to the lake. Our friends, Cory, Lacy and Emmett wanted to go the hot springs up past Lucky Peak and decided to head up to the lake with us, and head out later. Due to unfortunate events, we were unable to make it to the hot springs, but manage to have a great time anyway. Cory, Lacy and Emmett left for the night, but we decided to make it our first camping trip of the season and stay over night. Burr..... was it cold cause we ruffed it in a tent. We woke up the next morning eager to get in the lake. Our awesome friends Gary, Flo and Van Dempsey met us up there for an even greater time.

After some showing off on the bike, Gary broke three ribs... ouch, but you cant tell in the picture below, he hides it pretty well.

Flo and I had a blast talking and sun bathing, she even got on the tubes, but said once she felt her brain rattling around she had to stop!!! I love that chick!

We took the dogs and they as well had a great time. Hershey, like always ran off, and didn't want to come back, thank god for cages!!!!! She's our little runner, and prisoner!

Caylee had a blast, her she is showing off her new swimsuit her Grandma Joyce got her. She says to tell you all that you should never buy a swimming suit that looks like it has flowers on it cause bees love you when you wear it. I think she got that from her dad.... who knows.

Shes my little cutie, a brat sometime, but my everything!!!!

He's going to kill me, but I couldn't resist, here's a picture of my man in his ghetto fabulous white trash outfit!!! Watch out for those socks.

Van, Flo and Gary's son seemed to have a good time, Joyce taught him how to cast off the boat, he went tubing with me, and played in the water. Don't look at me, i look gross!!!!

Overall, the weekend turned out pretty good, next we wont rush ourselves though!!!! And if any of you are interested in boating with us, just throw me a line and we'll go out sometime.

Crochet, Crochet, Crochet

As some of you may know, one of my favorite hobbies is crocheting!!!! It calms me down when I’m stressin’! Over the last couple weeks I have bought some patterns and made a few things! I’m loving the hats with brims, and have made several, different variations and such. For Easter, my sister bought her daughter a cute sundress from Old Navy, and Terah mentioned something about needing something to go over it. So I hopped in and made her a cardigan type thing, cause Terah is always making Caylee and me such cute things!!! Here is a picture of it!!! I love these kids!!!


I saw an awesome pattern for a pea coat for my daughter that I just had to make it. She’s not keen on things I make (at 5, who would have known), so to try and make it easier, I let her pick out the color that she wanted it to be, and what do you know she chose red, my favorite color. I finished if off with some leather covered buttons I found in Baker City! Sadly, it barely fits her, and she hates the color. I asked her why she chose red, and she simple said, “Mom, cause it’s you’re favorite”(it melted my heart to know she kept track of stuff like that). Some lucky girl will get it(if her mom wants it)!! I’m working on making several other, but for now, time doesn’t permit for me to do alot.

I have also made some hats, and I convinced Caylee to model them for me (you call tell by the look on her face!!!!)!

I've made some other stuff, and will update you later with the other stuff.

As for now, my hubby is home and we are off to dinner.

April 2009

The Caufields Life’s been a bit hectic lately, time flies, and I seriously don’t know what happened to it. Don’t get me wrong, it’s been great, things have been looking up, and we as the Caufield’s are truly happy. We added yet another family member to our household, she’s a 3 yr old Min Pin named Hershey. Caylee has given her the name she-she, and surprisingly, she’s listens more when called she-she then by her real name. She’s a cutie and really a good dog. Goofy isn’t too fond of her yet, he wants all the attention! He’s been acting depressed like we don’t love him, but we all do, especially Caylee (in a prior blog we (I) stated he was dumb, but he truthfully is getting smarter by the day, thank God!!!)!!! Here’s a picture of our new dog, not a good one, but better with follow with in the week!

Life for me in the last 2 months has changed dramatically. I’m happier, fatter, and loving life.

For Instance:

Who in their right mind would admit that :
1.) They’re on a anti-depressant/anxiety pill
2.) They’re loving every minute of it!!!!

That’s right. One thing I am thankful for at the moment is LEXAPRO. I’ve been on it for about 2 months, and I’m loving it. I’m not nervous over stupid stuff anymore. I don’t dread going to work as much as I use to, and I don’t overreact over stupid things like I use to!!! My O.C.D. has calmed way down, and my house isn’t in perfect order like I like it to be, and it doesn’t bug me!!! Seriously! The only down side is I want to eat all the time!!! Will power/self control HERE I COME!!!

I’m also very thankful for my Daughter Caylee, she brings an endless amount of joy to our life’s with her never ending conversations about her life stories as a 5 year old. She’s moody like a 14 year old, but full of optimism like you wouldn’t believe. Looking back at my childhood years, Caylee and I are exact opposites. I was very shy, and she is very outgoing, she must get it from her dad!!

I am also very thankful for Darek, how hard he works to provide for our family! Over the last couple weeks, with him being gone, we have become closer, which is awesome. I love him!!!